I Am Not Calm Podcast

I Am Not Calm Podcast

By: Amanda Nicholson

Language: en

Categories: Health, Fitness, Mental, Society, Culture, Personal, Journals

Discussing autism, my experiences and views on the world. iamnotcalm.substack.com

Episodes

The Podcast is Coming Back
Jan 07, 2026

After a short break, the podcast is coming back. Before that, I explain a little about how I create/record the podcast and why, and what to expect over the next few months.



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Duration: 00:03:25
Autism Imposter Syndrome, and Finding Online Support for Autism
Nov 05, 2025

This week I talk about doubts about being autistic or ‘not autistic enough’, and how to find online autism support. I also give an update on my experience with Right to Choose.

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Duration: 00:05:54
Autism and Finding/Keeping Paid Work
Oct 29, 2025

This week, I talk about some of my own and other people’s experiences of finding work while being openly autistic, and the way employers undervalue autistic people.



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Duration: 00:04:45
My Experiences so far of 'Right to Choose'
Oct 15, 2025

Waiting for my autism assessment and apparently, waiting to go on the waiting list!



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Duration: 00:04:55
Music and Autism
Oct 08, 2025

This week, I talk about discovering the calming effects of classical music, and acceptable ways to stim at gigs without anyone noticing or caring.



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Duration: 00:02:37
National Poetry Day Special
Oct 01, 2025

Just in time for National Poetry Day on 2nd October, I’m joined by Andy N, Courtney Ward and Joe Tetley, who share their fantastic and thought-provoking poems.



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Duration: 00:09:26
Do Employers Really Value Lived Experience?
Sep 24, 2025

This week, I talk about a few of my job applications where I wrongly thought my lived experiences would help, and an unpleasant experience that an autistic employee had when working for an organisation whose purpose it is to help autistic people.



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Duration: 00:03:54
Misunderstandings and Misconceptions of Autism
Sep 17, 2025

I recently had an article published about bullying and autism. Having already had an article about masking published by Stylist, I knew that not everyone would be so understanding. So, I decided to avoid the comment section.

However, a few days later, I realised that if I’m trying to encourage more autistic people to speak out to (hopefully) build awareness and understanding, I need to stop hiding from things like this.

So, in this episode, I went through the comments and responded to some of them on this podcast. There were 172 in total, so it...

Duration: 00:11:47
Diagnosed or Self-Diagnosed? It's All the Same
Sep 09, 2025

I felt like I had to say something, because nobody is pretending to be autistic and nobody self-diagnoses without doing a lot of research first.



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Duration: 00:04:32